Lillies Not For Me (UK)

Conversion and aversion therapies represent a profoundly troubling period in LGBTQ+ history. Psychiatric institutions subjected gay men to invasive surgical procedures, chemical treatments, and electrical experiments in attempts to change their sexual orientation. This film presents a historical depiction of these traumatic practices and their devastating consequences, set against the backdrop of 1920s Britain. Simultaneously, it delivers a poignant exploration of love, grief, and the intricate nature of human emotions. Through alternating timelines, the narrative juxtaposes the beauty of queer relationships with the disturbing reality of conversion therapies during that era.

The story unfolds within an asylum where nurses serve as “companions” to rehabilitate gay patients. Owen, a struggling writer experiencing creative block for his second novel, encounters Dorothy, a kind-hearted nurse unfamiliar with romance. Through flashbacks, we learn about Owen’s past in a countryside cottage and his complex relationship with Philip, a medical student convinced he possesses a “cure” for same-sex attraction. Their ambiguous bond, charged with unspoken desire, culminates in Philip persuading Owen to undergo a dangerous genital procedure. The arrival of Charles, a self-assured queer man who considers his wife his closest confidant, disrupts their dynamic. Owen and Charles develop a deep connection, leading to an intimate encounter witnessed by Philip—an event that ignites a volatile triangle of passion, rebellion, and violence. Following Charles’ tragic death at Philip’s hands and his subsequent disappearance, a devastated Owen seeks solace with Charles’ family. His visit to a gay bar Charles had mentioned results in his arrest and institutionalization, where he makes a horrifying discovery: Philip now oversees the conversion facility and intends to perform the same procedure on him.

The film masterfully transitions between two distinct periods, creating stark contrasts between the bleak, oppressive asylum and the vibrant warmth of Owen’s cottage memories. These three queer characters embody diverse perspectives on identity—Owen’s pursuit of liberation, Philip’s self-destructive repression, and Charles’ quiet authenticity. The lead actor’s delicate features and expressive eyes perfectly capture Owen’s emotional fragility, while his compelling chemistry with fellow cast members enhances the film’s impact.

While the artistic direction and cinematography excel, some viewers may find the pacing deliberate. However, this measured approach allows the gravity of the narrative to resonate fully. This independent production courageously confronts a dark chapter in queer history while celebrating the resilience of love—a powerful reminder of how far society has progressed, and the suffering endured by those who lived through such inhumane treatment. The filmmaker deserves recognition for tackling this important story with both sensitivity and artistic vision.